I finally understand.

Many people ask why so down, why so emotional, what makes you feel so sad.
Words can't describe how bad it feels when you are really down.
But, life still gotta move on.
Every moment spent , those days that we have been through.
From zero to hundred and now back to zero. All of this has come to an end.
Its gonna be hard, so much harder than I think.
I don't know how they make it, how they get through this.
Sometimes its not the period that counts, but how much feeling you pour into it.
All of it that you have poured out, has become a waste in the end.
Feeling wasted it is, but the pain its there aching.
I used to thinked a lot, think untill I cracked my head.
I don't understand where had gone wrong.
But today, everything has changed.
I watched you changed, I watched how the process goes.
Untill one day we found ourselves numb.
Disappointment, hopeless, hatred.
We hate them, but we will eventually feel tired.
Its rather funny that we avoid the pain we go through till we are back to the starting point.
Can we still be the same again , as though we don't know each other like that day....???
There is a Scar there already..but anyhow, I still survive even without you.

Amen.