Sunday, November 16, 2008

I Can't Deny.

Yoopz peeps! Here am I. Back again. Wow, many many many updates I wanted to post up so badly. Coz many outings with frens and especially the trip that I went last week with mua family and cousins to Port Dickson. So, many pics were taken and We definitely had lotsa fun and a great time over there. But I was kinda Busy after I came back from PD during last 2 weeks, due to the assignments, courseworks and presentations. Geez, at least now I have the time for a post. Yippie. Hmm, I'm not gonna post up any pictures yet coz I need some time to arrage all the pics in my folders. Din realize that I actually took more than 250 pics just at PD. Lol. Okay, cut the crap off. I should start off with wat's really happening during these few weeks.
Hmm.. First of all I seriously wana Thank God for these few weeks that has been a hectic one for me. Thank God for granting me the strength and wisdom upon me especially last week, coz I actually finished up my English Presentation and 3 courseworks at the same time. Ohh, I felt damn relieved for now after all the hard work done. ;) Now that I still left BM presentation and I'm done. Rest for 1 week with only light assignments as usual then another project coming up which is BISA. Swtz. Assingments, assingments and assignments. Sigh.

As my title for this post have already clearly stated that - I can't deny. What I actually mean by I can't deny?! There are alot of things that actually linked to many situation that I'm trying to say it here. I can't deny that I love my life and enjoying it right now. I mean at this age. Getting to know more and more friends starting from HSBC untill now fitting myself in college and some new frens I got to know through my frens. Participating any youth activities or doing community work just like recently joining Leo Club. Trying new stuff and YEA! Not to forget on the other hand I'm enjoying FOOD! I heartz food. I can't deny that I love to eat so much! Hahaa.


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I can't deny too that I admire this friend of mine that I got to know him not long ago. I won't reveal his name. But I wanted to share this out coz I can't deny that there's a special feeling between us when we chat and meet each other while in college. We both chatted alot while in msn and anything we also will share it out. No matter how bad that day would be. We still want to find out how we both were doing in our daily routine. We both used to encourage each other whenever we met any probs in life. One thing that makes me felt amazed was He too felt the same way as me where before that there was quite a number of times we did bumped into each other but we din noe each other yet at that time. The thing that I'm trying to say is He too felt the same way as me whenever we saw each other, I got a feeling that I've known him since long ago whenever I saw him but we seriously duno each other from the start. There goes the same feeling for him. He told me that he saw me is like 'I've known you forever'. Isn't it amazed?! I just couldn't describe how it feels but I just have this special feeling towards him. After for quite some time while I started my semester 2, I only got to know that we already added each other in friendster. Finally, one day we got each other's contact, like msn and slowly we became friends. Oh yea, this dude always says that I'm intresting. lol. I felt comfortable when we both chat and lastly I think I can't deny that I can't loose the addiction bonding with him. He felt the same way too. Thats just US! ;)

Okay. Another situation that I can't deny was there were this guy from my college too same course as me. I just got to know him while in semester 2 which means just recently. I did notice bout him from the start of sem 2 and then one day I found his friendster, thought that we might be frens and so I added him. After the adding and followed by having each other's msn and slowly he told me that he is intrested in me and after that he said he likes me. I was damn surprised that he told me that. Cos we just got to know each other and also I din knoe he already noticed me while in semester 1. Overall, He was a quite good looking guy, sometimes "cool" untill 'cold!' lol. I noticed he seldom talk to girls and always paying fully attention while in lecture. I never see him turn his head and always look infront while the lecture is on. Eventhough I'm quite impressive with all this in him and I can't deny too that I was touched by him for now coz the tiny little things that he does to me for just trying his best to chase after me but somehow I'm still feeling kinda weird that I just know him for like 1 week like dat and he already burst out his feelings that he got a crush on me. I seriously duno much bout him and I reli wanted to know him more and see wat's actually in him. You know... I can't be accepting a guy without knowing him well in detail. So, in replied I told him I need TIME perhaps alot of time to know him more. So, untill now the 2nd week going to be the 3rd week i think if i'm not wrong..we still maitain as frens. Sorry to say that I can't make my decisions for now, all I need is Time. Time shall proves it all whether this guy really likes me anot. True love waits!

Alright, I think i should stop here. Anyhow, I'm feeling better after sharing it out. I pray that God will direct me the right path for making the right decisions when the time has come for me to decide what I needed to. Who will be my Mr. Right??! Noone noes except God. I dunno why I will have the gutsz to tell everything out here. But these 3 words meant alot to me while I was thinking the title for this post.


I CAN'T DENY.
That's just me.

11 comments:

tkchenry said...

oooo.... not bad... in love still have time for leo.

good member!! haha.

/-\*manda aka Chingz said...

Haaha!!! LOL. In love doesn't mean I'm not available for anything else anymore.Yeap! Of coz I am a good member, as what I've promise to be. ;)

tkchenry said...

very good very good. hope u can get him to join too! lol. just kd!

/-\*manda aka Chingz said...

Haaha! LOL. I'll try to do that one day. Hehe. and I wana clarify that I'm still single.Pls dun missunderstood coz of wat I've posted here. Haha. I'm waiting for the right time for the right one. lol. =X

tkchenry said...

ooo.... serious? haha. who's gonna tell u when is right time and who's the right one?

/-\*manda aka Chingz said...

My Feelings shall tell me that. Time shall proves it all. ;)

tkchenry said...

your feeling has no intelligence. it cant tell u. hehe

/-\*manda aka Chingz said...

Haha. U are right but my feelings shall ensure me or guide me in making decisions when I'm confused. Don't u?! lol.

tkchenry said...

nope... it makes u confuse more. hahahaaa

/-\*manda aka Chingz said...

LOL. How sure are you that I will be confuse by my feelings? U are not me also. Haha! swtz.

tkchenry said...

er... oh. not u. me. haha